Nope

I still do not have a contract to teach.  I did not get the job at the school that I wanted to teach at.  We have absolutely no idea what that means.  We have no idea what I will be doing.  School starts in 2 weeks.  It will be hard to get a job at this point.  So, right now....I have no clue.  That is my answer to almost everything right now.

Waiting....

There are things that I want to talk about.  Like the wonderful thunderstorm that is dumping rain and making my house cool and my grass green.  It smells wonderful.  But all of that beauty is being overshadowed by the fact that I do not know if I have a job.

I know I only interviewed today.  I shouldn't expect a call so soon, but it is hard to not have a call because on Wednesday I interviewed at the same school and I got a call that day to tell me that I didn't get the job but they wanted me to come and interview for another job that was available...the job I REALLY wanted.  It is still over a half an hour away from the time that I heard the news on Monday.  I got the call at exactly 4:01 pm; right when I was preparing for my class.  So, I sit and I wait.  Today has gone by the slowest I have ever had a day go by.  I can't believe it has only been 5 hours since the interview.  It seems like ages.  I didn't want to post because I didn't have the news, but I have to type things out so that I don't go out of my mind!!  I am an odd one, but that is who I am.  I still have faith and hope so that is all I can do right now.

Job Interview

I go in for an 8th grade science teaching position tomorrow.  I am quite hopeful that I will get this job.  If I don't. sign me up for substituting because I don't think that I would be able to get a job with school starting so soon.  This is honestly so nerve wracking.  I do not do so well with the unexpected.

My classes are over TODAY!  I literally don't have anything to do after today.  I am planning on the lessons that I will be doing.  I am starting to plan my first days of school just in case.

New Hobby

Because of all of the techy stuff that I have been able to learn this last summer I have found a new hobby.  I know how to make blinkies.  If you don't know what those are, that is okay.  I didn't know what they were until I made it into the message board world.  This is an example:




It isn't much.  It is just layering things within Photoshop and making a little movie out of it.  I think that it is really fun to be able to make these.  This is the one that I made today.




I think that it is cute for being the first blinkie that I have ever created.  I am starting to build up my digital library of trinkets, stitches, paper clips, papers, etc.  I am really glad that I have an external hard drive just for me.  I would fill up my computer far too fast if I didn't have it.  I am having fun.

Adoption Update

There are many things that I have not been talking about with my blog because it has been a sensitive issue.  Not the least of these is Endrit and I becoming parents.  We want to become parents.  We really do.  As far as actually trying we haven't been trying 100%.  We have gotten pregnant twice in our married life.  One of those times was a couple of weeks ago.  I have never been able to carry a pregnancy for more than a few weeks.  I have never even made it to the doctor before I miscarried.  It is miserable.  That is why when Endrit and I went to the temple and received the directive to adopt we were excited about it.  Then came the costs.  It seems impossible that we will be able to afford the adoption.  We know that we are adopting internationally from Albania.  We have children there waiting.  I feel that with all of my heart.  That is why I was surprised when we got pregnant.  We are now at the choice of waiting to adopt and having our biological child first, or biting the financial bullet and adopting before we have children of our own.

I honestly don't want to make my children wait in Albania for us to get the funding.  We have gone too far in this direction to disregard all of our experiences and switch gears.  We have thought about it.  We have even planned for it when we got pregnant.

So, we step forward with faith.  It is right and that is all that we need to know.  We pay tithing and have faith.  That is all that we can do.

Two Sides To A Coin

As I go into teaching, I have to think about my personal philosophy of teaching.  I have worked at a struggling school with a struggling demographic. While there I have learned to love teaching that demographic of student.  I sometimes wish that there was a little bit more, but there are some things that you learn more from and that school was one that taught me many great lessons.  

There is a school that I interviewed at is in almost every way the opposite of where I have been teaching.  Although it may sound like a dream job to some, it has me questioning if it is a good fit for me.  In one way (my personal philosophy of teaching) it is NOT for me.  In another way (my gaining of knowledge) it is PERFECT for me.

I have to be able to think of the future.  What I do now will either help or hinder me in my future career goals.  If I stay at one type of school I will not learn how to teach in different environments.  If I teach in polar opposite schools, I have the learning, but not necessarily the enjoyment.  I would LOVE to get a job at a school that is a nice happy medium between the far extremes, but I am not so confident that I will be able to find that kind of job.  

So, If I get the job, do I take it and learn from it as much as I can, or do I pass it by and stick with my teaching philosophy?  I am still unsure as to what that answer is going to be.  If I don't get the job the answer is easy, keep looking.  If I get the job...it gets a little bit harder.  I know that the school will be wanting an answer that day.  I have to decide what I am going to do.  

house pics

The front

The side

The other side.  We have roses.