I walked across campus today and figured out that my life right now parallels the physical feelings that I felt as I was walking down an ice covered incline. Right now life isn't necessarily the best. I was frozen and unstable as I walked down and all I wanted to do was go home, put my warm and fuzzy robe on, sip hot cocoa and watch a good movie. I then got to thinking that is exactly waht I want my life to be like right now. Going to school is anything but warm and fuzzy. It is cold, windy and bites at your sanity. Instead of watching and being happy for everyone around you doing well and seeming so happy I see people and fell like I am always a step behind. I can't follow the plot because I haven't gotten the understanding that I need.
With the slope I had to walk up to go to class I was brave and walked right in the middle of the ice and knew that I wouldn't falter. I watched every step carefully and had faith. Walking back, disheartened by my lack of understanding in my class I had to walk down the hill. Conciously I noticed that it was much harder to walk down the hill than up it. You can't walk on your tippy toes to be extra careful with your steps. This is the point I am at right now with schooling. I have gotten done with over half of the time that I need to be in school. I am now on the downward slope. If I look at my schoolwork and dread it and let it pile up the more weight I have to carry and the more easily I will fall down. I have to conciously take it one step at a time. There are classes that make me want to fall down and give up but I have to remember that it is one step at a time. There will be minor slips, but eventually I will make it down the hill to sweet scholastic freedom.
1/17/08
1/14/08
The days can become long...
School has started and of course I am not in school mode quite yet, but I have gotten tons of stuff done by this time that I didn't even think about having done in the past. Well I have found out that upper division classes are insane!! They take up so much time from day one! I have to have chapters 1-5 and 10 read by wednesday in one class and I have read 4 chapters of history. I have a 7 page paper due Wednesday and a 7 page homework assignment due on Thursday. I have to read the declaration of independance and the constitution. It is absolutely crazy!! I am not even telling all the hours that I have to put in with classroom observations and tutoring as well. I guess that it makes me slot out time better.
Endrit is starting his teaching today so that makes both of us not being able to get home until about 7:30 tonight when we get everything done. I am already thinking that it is going to be a more time consuming semester, but I think that I will like it a lot more than last semester. Please pray that I will continue to be motivated to get everything done before it is due so that I will have a relatively stressfree semester.
Have a nice day.
Endrit is starting his teaching today so that makes both of us not being able to get home until about 7:30 tonight when we get everything done. I am already thinking that it is going to be a more time consuming semester, but I think that I will like it a lot more than last semester. Please pray that I will continue to be motivated to get everything done before it is due so that I will have a relatively stressfree semester.
Have a nice day.
1/7/08
SP 08
It is official...school has started again. I have gone to one of my 3 classes for the day and I am regreting that I am taking 3 credit 2 day a week class...the classes are 1.5 hour long and my attention wains at about an hour. I will see how much I love the 4:35-7:05 class that I have tonight...that was the only time that it was offered at all.
I am still in limbo because my petition has yet to come back to say weather or not I can get a masters instead of just a bachelors. I am thinking that I will be getting the bachelors. It sucks, but it is something that I can't fight forever. I really need to work out my schedule so that I can know a projected graduation date. It would be nice to know semester by semester class schedules.
Endrit is haveing a break of a semester he has 2 classes that he needs to take but one is for the first 7 weeks and the other is for the last 7 weeks so he only has 1 class and labs to teach this semester. Last semester he was having 3 classes and 3 3 hour labs a week so it is relaxing for him and he gets to research which makes him extra happy.
I am in my second semester of my minerology (hell) class and I will be oober excited to get that over with. I got a really good grade in it but it was a stressful class. All signs point to it being better this semester.
yet again it is school stuff because that is all that I can talk about because that is my life.
I guess that there is one thing...Endrit and I teach the 5 year olds at church and one of them is a developmentally delayed ADD boy and I love teaching the class!! It has only been one week, but I think that everything will be good!
I am still in limbo because my petition has yet to come back to say weather or not I can get a masters instead of just a bachelors. I am thinking that I will be getting the bachelors. It sucks, but it is something that I can't fight forever. I really need to work out my schedule so that I can know a projected graduation date. It would be nice to know semester by semester class schedules.
Endrit is haveing a break of a semester he has 2 classes that he needs to take but one is for the first 7 weeks and the other is for the last 7 weeks so he only has 1 class and labs to teach this semester. Last semester he was having 3 classes and 3 3 hour labs a week so it is relaxing for him and he gets to research which makes him extra happy.
I am in my second semester of my minerology (hell) class and I will be oober excited to get that over with. I got a really good grade in it but it was a stressful class. All signs point to it being better this semester.
yet again it is school stuff because that is all that I can talk about because that is my life.
I guess that there is one thing...Endrit and I teach the 5 year olds at church and one of them is a developmentally delayed ADD boy and I love teaching the class!! It has only been one week, but I think that everything will be good!
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