Adoption Update

There are many things that I have not been talking about with my blog because it has been a sensitive issue.  Not the least of these is Endrit and I becoming parents.  We want to become parents.  We really do.  As far as actually trying we haven't been trying 100%.  We have gotten pregnant twice in our married life.  One of those times was a couple of weeks ago.  I have never been able to carry a pregnancy for more than a few weeks.  I have never even made it to the doctor before I miscarried.  It is miserable.  That is why when Endrit and I went to the temple and received the directive to adopt we were excited about it.  Then came the costs.  It seems impossible that we will be able to afford the adoption.  We know that we are adopting internationally from Albania.  We have children there waiting.  I feel that with all of my heart.  That is why I was surprised when we got pregnant.  We are now at the choice of waiting to adopt and having our biological child first, or biting the financial bullet and adopting before we have children of our own.

I honestly don't want to make my children wait in Albania for us to get the funding.  We have gone too far in this direction to disregard all of our experiences and switch gears.  We have thought about it.  We have even planned for it when we got pregnant.

So, we step forward with faith.  It is right and that is all that we need to know.  We pay tithing and have faith.  That is all that we can do.