After I went through the temple my parents left on their mission. I could still talk to them and I did on a regular basis to keep them up to date on the wedding and such. It was kind of hard to do wedding things because basically it was done except for sewing table cloths and putting the rest of the announcements together. The dress fit like a glove, we registered for Endrit's tux that he didn't even wear, it was just all planned. We were able to focus on school and mentally prepare for what eternity meant. There were definite ups and downs when it came to who was invited to the wedding. I can remember the heated emotions where I thought that someone who didn't even matter was inviting everyone and their dog to my wedding. Both of our parents were not going to be there so we would have whomever we wanted in the room...Right? I wanted Endrit to Invite who he wanted and I would invite who I wanted. It would work out. It didn't happen that way with the invitations, but somehow it happened that way when it came time for the wedding. There were still empty seats and my anxiety stayed under control.
We had to depend on each other for everything. Something had to be planned, we had to do it. Emotions that needed to be dealt with, we had to work through them. Getting Endrit's temple date, we had to work together. Finding an apartment and moving in, we had to do it together with the exception of the couch and bed that Alex brought up. It was nice to just have him there for me because I learned what marriage would slightly entail. We worked and shopped together and we dated and had a good time getting to know the other person better. We were still ambivalent for marriage because of his culture shock and my being so young! A realization came about at the temple for me before we were married that I will tell later on why it was really good for me to have a long engagement.
It was one of the trying times that Endrit and I had because of "bridezilla" which I think I was a tame lizard like zilla but others might beg to differ. I only remember 2 subject areas that I had outbursts in. It wasn't the whole wedding, just the guest list and the before reception photos. I handled the latter better. But through this all, Endrit and I became more inseparable and excited to be married for all eternity.
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