The mole revisited...

So, I have melanoma. That is all I know. I am not sharing this tidbit on my Facebook or instagram accounts until I have more information. I go into the doctor on Monday and hopefully gain a better insight into the stage it is at and what the treatment will entail and what further tests I need to do. Life can sure throw you curveballs!

I fell off the wagon...

And I fell off HARD.  I was doing so well...and then life happened.  Stressful, crazy life happened.  I started drinking mountain dew again. Diet to begin with.  Then it was regular. Then it was a liter of regular.  Yesterday, I didn't because I didn't go to the store.  But, I did practically only eat sugar.  I have been having way too much sugar these days.  Yesterday was the start of a couple of other things so last night, I decided enough was enough.  I NEED to get healthy.  I want to be there for my kids and my grandkids in many, many years.  I am spending way too much money on crap.  That needs to stop.  So, today is a new day.  I am back on the wagon.  I know it won't be easy.  I am a sugar addict.  I crave all the candy.  Endrit is even awesome and brings me candy and brownies and other things.  So, I will go back to going to the store one time a week and buying the fresh foods for the week.  I refuse to buy mountain dew no matter how bad of a headache I get while I am getting off of that addiction.  I have decided that I might pay myself a minimal amount of money each day I reach my goals.  Then when I get healthier, I can use that to buy some clothes or something.  Pray for me.  Kicking sugar and caffeine addictions are crazy hard...but I can do it.  I will do it.

smartphoneless

Just as I thought I was going to have my smartphone back, the proxy charger stopped working...whatever dude...it is so frustrating.

But, we decided that we would just get 2 batteries and a wall charger and call it good swapping out batteries.   We only have to make it to the end of May so it isn't that bad.  Technology and I have not been having a good relationship since about December.  Hopefully in May, it will get better.

Mole

For a LLLLOOOOONNNNNGGGGG time I have had this mole.  It has been getting bigger, more asymmetrical and then started getting bumpy.  So, I finally bit the bullet and got the dang thing removed.  It was really easy.  We talked about farming while my doctor sliced and diced.  I will find out in the next 10 days or so if we have to take out more if it is cancerous.  It was about the size of a dime so it took 8 stitches to close the hole.  I accidentally stretched and broke the skin around the stitches that night because I knelt down to change Dorian's diaper.  I have to be very careful now so I don't end up popping the stitches.  Good riddance dumb mole.

Dorian naps...

We decided to get a proximity charge pad instead of waiting until May to get a new phone.  I uploaded 42 new pictures on Instagram this afternoon.

But, today Dorian had a great nap!  He fell asleep on his own and stayed asleep for 1 hour and 20 minutes!  That is HUGE.  I hope that I will be able to have him sleep on his own like that more often.  He has always been such a crappy sleeper. It made me super happy that he was able to go to sleep on his own today.

So, if you want to see more pictures, follow my IG.

The little things

I taught Marsi's Primary class today.  I didn't know I was teaching until Saturday night.  I also teach an adult Sunday school class so it gets a bit busy when I do both.

Well, we were talking about the fact that even little children their age could be missionaries by openly talking about Jesus Christ.  You get 5 little girls (where 3 of them are oldest children) and a boy together all aged 4 and 5 and it gets a bit crazy.  When I gave them missionary tags, they were SUPER excited!  Like over the moon excited.

It made me even happier when right before bath, Marsi still had the tag on.  I also got a picture from one of the other moms showing me how excited her daughter was to be able to be a missionary and have a tag and everything.

That took me 5 minutes to find and print out, another 20 putting them together, and it was totally worth it.  It cost hardly anything to brighten these kid's day.  It is truly the little things that go above and beyond in a lesson that make these kids love the church and learning the gospel.

Fitting in

It has never been my strong suit.  Like, I usually am playing a whole different card game.  Oh well.  As an adult, I really couldn't care less what people thought of me.  Yeah, it would be nice if I had some friends and actually got out every once in a while without having a panic attack.  But, I am content in the life that I have.

BUT...

My kids.  I want them to NEVER have the childhood drama I had around the subject of "friends".  I want them to learn a lot of things I learned growing up.  But I want them to actually want to come back and visit us if we continue to live in CO after they are out of the house.

If my parents still lived in Weston, I would visit; begrudgingly.  I would cringe and get knots in my stomach if I had to go to the grocery store praying I wouldn't see anyone that I knew from my childhood.  I thank my Heavenly Father quite often that my parents move halfway across the country.

So, there is this dichotomy.  My kids are young.  I can't just send them down the street to a friend's house.  I have to be there.  I have to interact.  I have to be somewhat of a friend of the parent there too.  That is the hard part.  Gaining and maintaining friends isn't something that comes naturally to me.

I overthink things a lot.  Especially with my children.  Mostly I do that because I want them to be friendly to all and to be liked.  Being a parent isn't easy at all. Seriously, how could anyone not like these cuties? ;)