Cloth diapers

Have I ever said before that Marsi is huge?  I am sure I have with her being exclusively in 3T clothing now and randomly 4T.  This means that our one size (OS) fuzzibuns, OS Blueberry, OS Alvababy, size1 and 2 OS Sunbaby diapers all got too small for her massive legs a while ago.  I stuffed her into them longer than I should, but the poor red marks on her legs consistently starting to get a rash made me make a choice; potty training, disposable diapers or another investment in larger cloth training diapers for big kids.

I went with potty training first while using disposables.  Big, epic FAIL.  She is so not ready.  Nothing I did, no treats or incentives I tempted her with gave her any interest in the potty.  So, we started buying disposables.  After I bought 3, yes only 3 large boxes of them I rolled my eyes and said WHY? She isn't ready to potty train.  I can buy a whole stash of cloth diapers for 3 months worth of disposables.  Marsi isn't going to be trained in 3 months.  It just isn't going to happen unless a huge miracle strikes.  So, I bought the stash.

Yes, I am a nerd.  I am excited to get Marsi back in cloth!  I am sick of literally throwing money away.  Even with the cheap diapers, it is too expensive.  So, I have a newborn stash, baby stash and toddler potty training stash for up to around 45 lbs. Marsi even saw one of her cloth diapers and was begging me to put that on her instead of the disposables.  She knows what feels good on her tush!

Rough Week Ahead

This week is going to be a rough week.  I am having dead baby nightmares in preparation for my appointment on Wednesday. They start about a week before every appointment.  I am also coming up on the estimated due date of the baby I lost in February.  I would have been due on Monday.  On Tuesday, it is the annual pregnancy and infant loss wave of light I have participated in for 4 years now. Wednesday I have my regular 15 week appointment where I can only hope the baby is well.  Thursday, of my own choosing, we are feeding the sister missionaries.  Busy could be good, but it doesn't take away the fear and aching.

Reason for my absence

Yes, I have been gone from blogger for a while now.  I didn't want to rain my depression on anyone who decides to read.  Endrit and I had a pretty hard time STAYING pregnant again.  Since I found out I was pregnant when we moved, I found a wonderful midwife in an OB practice that I am going to.  She did bloodwork and determined that I was in fact loosing that baby.  I had my suspicions, but having it confirmed was a killer.  She was wonderful.  We did an array of blood work and tried to figure out what could have caused that baby to be lost as well as try to keep me pregnant in the future.  This started the 8 month long journey mixed with another 2 early losses before me getting to where I am now.

We are lucky because it is a progesterone problem with me that makes me loose the baby.  So, taking progesterone starting at 3 days after confirmed ovulation  fixed my problem again.  At least I didn't have to do the baby aspirin as well that we had to do to get Marsi.  She fixed that problem.  So, now here I am at almost 10 weeks pregnant. (10 weeks on Wednesday) I am happily taking my progesterone every day to keep this little one with us.  I have only had 1 appointment with the midwife for this pregnancy at 6 weeks 4 days.  It isn't the best picture, but it is the only picture I have of our baby.  Strong heartbeat and all :)

And, here is the bonus of Marsi wearing her big sister shirt :)

Wildcat Glades

We also went to the Wildcat Glades nature center. It was Marsi's nap time so we didn't get to hike around, but we had fun in the visitors center here as well. She loved to sit on this frog.

Grandpa was silly with her as well.

Grandma liked to show her the turtles.

She also loved the lizard there too.

Neosho

When in Missouri, we went to the Neosho national fish hatchery.  Marsi has always loved fish since her first visit to an aquarium.  This was n different. She was even able to feed the fish there.

While we were there a train passed. The conductor saw us and gave a nice toot of the horn for her.  It was really fun.

The magnolia tree was in every stage of bloom. I think that it is a beautiful tree, even if it has a plastic look to it.

Marsi loved to be in the bubble under a fish tank to be able to se the fish all around her. This is in the visitors center.

Pool

When Marsi and I went to visit my parents in Missouri, I bought Marsi a little backyard pool.  She loved swimming in my parents's pool and I hate having to drive to the municipal pool so this was the best alternative.  She loves it.

Locks of Love

Locks of Love donation #5 happened this morning. I have been having the "it is summer and my hair is thick and hot" itch to chop it all off...so I just did it.  I am loving my new do.

And this is it styled in all its glory.