Rough Week Ahead

This week is going to be a rough week.  I am having dead baby nightmares in preparation for my appointment on Wednesday. They start about a week before every appointment.  I am also coming up on the estimated due date of the baby I lost in February.  I would have been due on Monday.  On Tuesday, it is the annual pregnancy and infant loss wave of light I have participated in for 4 years now. Wednesday I have my regular 15 week appointment where I can only hope the baby is well.  Thursday, of my own choosing, we are feeding the sister missionaries.  Busy could be good, but it doesn't take away the fear and aching.