Locks of Love

Locks of Love donation #5 happened this morning. I have been having the "it is summer and my hair is thick and hot" itch to chop it all off...so I just did it.  I am loving my new do.

And this is it styled in all its glory.

Fire Season

One thing that scared me when I found out we were moving to Colorado Springs was fire dangers.  It seems to be starting up early this year for us as well.  Endrit has to come home early today because the person he carpools with needed to get home since the wildfire was in his neck of the woods. He has to prepare just in case he needs to evacuate.  Not the way I really want him to come home early, but it is nice to know he will be home.  Here is a view from my neighborhood.

She is still a baby

There are a lot of days that I look at Marsi and realize how BIG she has gotten.  When she starts to use simple sentences, says her ABC's or understands what 1 minute means when I ask her to be patient the right way.  And then there are times, her most vulnerable times, that I look at her and know that she is still my precious little baby.

Memorial Day weekend.

Marsi took her first Instagram selfie today.  I thought it was cute.

We had Nana and Gjyshi over for the Memorial Day weekend as well.  I think they had fun with their grandbaby.

Surprise!

Endrit surprised me with roses when he came home from work.  I have the best husband ever.

8 Years

Thanksgiving 2004 our first picture together.

8 years ago Endrit and I took a huge step in our lives.  We had been best friends for only a few short months and we were getting married.  I hadn't even been out of high school for a full year.  

We were so in love...we still are.

In the past 8 years we have accomplished TONS!  

I graduated.

He graduated...3 times!

Endrit got his US citizenship.

We have a beautiful baby.

We are still in love as ever.  It has been a wonderful past 8 years.  Full of happiness, successes, achievements, challenges, hardships and love.  Here is to many, many more years to come.  Happy anniversary to us.

8

I have lost 8 pregnancies.  I have been asked several times about my losses.  I wanted to make a specific post to address some of the concerns that have been directed at me.

Yes, my losses were early.  But, each of those pregnancies were very much wanted.  Just because they are early, doesn't discount the fact that I actually lost a pregnancy.  It is definitely different emotions to go though than later losses, but don't try to one up me when it is a completely different set of circumstances.

Yes, I test early, before my period is due.  I ask, if you had losses like mine, wouldn't you want to do all you could to try and keep the next one?  One way to do that is early blood work for progesterone.  I was able to keep Marsi because of early progesterone intervention.  If I hadn't tested early with the losses since Marsi, I would still be struggling with loss.  I wouldn't know that my body chemistry got completely out of whack after Marsi.  My thyroid levels were such that it causes non viable eggs to be released and progesterone levels to drop.  My doctor was able to figure that out because we knew that it was yet again multiple losses and did more exploratory research into what was happening in me to figure it out.

I don't apologize for my passion about my losses.  I want people that go through this that they are not alone. There can be multiple reasons why and resources available when you lose a pregnancy.  I wouldn't want my worst enemy to have to go through the things I have gone through.  Walk a mile in my shoes before any judgement is passed my way.