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I have lost 8 pregnancies.  I have been asked several times about my losses.  I wanted to make a specific post to address some of the concerns that have been directed at me.

Yes, my losses were early.  But, each of those pregnancies were very much wanted.  Just because they are early, doesn't discount the fact that I actually lost a pregnancy.  It is definitely different emotions to go though than later losses, but don't try to one up me when it is a completely different set of circumstances.

Yes, I test early, before my period is due.  I ask, if you had losses like mine, wouldn't you want to do all you could to try and keep the next one?  One way to do that is early blood work for progesterone.  I was able to keep Marsi because of early progesterone intervention.  If I hadn't tested early with the losses since Marsi, I would still be struggling with loss.  I wouldn't know that my body chemistry got completely out of whack after Marsi.  My thyroid levels were such that it causes non viable eggs to be released and progesterone levels to drop.  My doctor was able to figure that out because we knew that it was yet again multiple losses and did more exploratory research into what was happening in me to figure it out.

I don't apologize for my passion about my losses.  I want people that go through this that they are not alone. There can be multiple reasons why and resources available when you lose a pregnancy.  I wouldn't want my worst enemy to have to go through the things I have gone through.  Walk a mile in my shoes before any judgement is passed my way.