Five

This is going to be a sad post, so, if you want to skip this one...no worries.

This time last year I was majorly pregnant and very excited for my baby girl to be born.  This time 2 years ago I was sad.  I was depressed.  I had just miscarried my second pregnancy and was pregnant again just to miscarry again.  I didn't know that I would go through it 2 more times after that.

Now that I am a full time mom to a beautiful little girl, I have time to really think about what happened 2 years ago.  It was a horrible time.

I was teaching my first year in my own classroom.  The principal decided to focus on everything I was doing wrong.  The vice principal died and one of the students was shot and killed by another student.  And I had 4 miscarriages in a row.  It sucked.  Then wen I was finally staying pregnant, I was super sick, pre term labor and on bed rest. I would never repeat those few months of my own choice.

I grew tons from it.  It gave me experiences that make motherhood a blessing and a miracle.  I try my hardest to think of the positive things that came from it.  I know I hug Marsi a little closer and have a little more patience with her antics because of what I went through to get her (and keep her healthy after she was born).

So, that is my mope post.  I would probably expect it to come around yearly.  Those few months have shaped me into part of the person I am now.